Wednesday, August 16, 2006

where do I go from here?

Life can get really crazy really fast. Alot happened on this backpacking trip I just returned from. Wshen we got home it was explained to me that my life will be drastically different. Ashley, my girlfriend of four years, has decided to move and "get a new start." I won't explain too much because i don't want to disrespect her in any way by telling too much... maybe read her blog for that info... I imagine she'll be posting about it soon. What has been made clear to me is that she doesn't want to be with me anymore. even though we've done the long distance thing, for one reason or another she doesn't think we should continue dating.

I haven't really been able to understand how I should deal with this yet. God is again seeming more and more confusing to me... and not in a good way. I don't understand why He's changing my life so much or why all of my closest friends and the person who I care about the most are all being torn out of my life and moved to Idaho. I once read that the reason separation is so painful is because it is one story being ripped into two. My life and Ashley's life has been one story for four years and it is becomming two separate stories. I now have the question of what my life will look like. What's this going to be like? Where do I go from here? Why is this happening?

I don't usually use my blog as a journal for these kinds of thoughts. I know I promised pictures and stories from the wilderness and they're still coming.


Janette said...

Thank you for posting that Wes, its good to hear from you, we miss you.
We are all quite speechless and have heavy hearts about the whole thing.
Jes and I are both going back up to school on the 21st and 22nd, so I think we'll miss your return trip home.
I don't know what to say Wes. I don't know wether to be angry or sad or both...or what. But my heart goes out to you, I hope your friends there are taking good care of you. Feel free to give jes or I a call if you want to talk any more.
We're here for you wes, we love you.


Ashley said...


Please read my post.


Agent X said...

I feel for ya, bro. I am sorry. I know it hurts. Words don't really relate it either.

Hang in there.